Need a topic...want to write...

But it's almost 11 and I need to go to the bank and figure out why my new ATM card hasn't arrived.

So I'll dazzle ya some other time. Have a lovely weekend.

Oh, shut up. You didn't come here to read. I have archives, you know. I'm going to shut this one down and reconfigure and start working on some typical Cari writing, more true to my style with publishing in mind, not blabbering.

Take now, for instance.

Medicated X One Year. Yeah, it's working.

Later.

Catching you up....

What can I tell you about my first year of ADHD medication? A few things. I still feel like a sell out, and in truth, I'm not taking it because I believe it helps curb the negative symptoms of ADHD. I am taking a pill so others can feel better about me. I am also taking it because I have lost 31 lbs. since October. I am ready for cooler weather so I can start walking and see if I can get back to losing, cause I've stalled out. Finally, I'm taking it because my kids say there's a huge difference. Especially in trips to Wal-Mart.

The only way I know how to explain my difficulty shopping is this: if you go to the store for a certain product, you will return with that product, maybe an impulse item or two. Not me. I will go to the shampoo aisle, say, and instead of seeing an aisle with shampoo and grabbing the ONE I like and always use, I see one million individual bottles in all the colors and sizes, and I have to inspect each one to make my decision. Now, you compound that with everything else on my normal grocery list, you'll understand. Many times I'll go for one thing, spend $200 on impluse items, and get home without what I went for anyway.

I did notice when I went sans-pill to WalMart, it was a very long and frustrating trip. And I lost my car. Sighhhh.....

Radiate

Moses was a cool guy. I love studying the Old Testament, but I'm especially drawn to Moses right now. What a passion he had for people! If you read about God's anger against the Israelites in their idolatry, you then see Moses pleading for their lives, offering to give his own in their place. Paul did the same thing, but get this: Paul had the knowledge that God would not allow that; he knew that a man could only answer for his own sin. Moses had no idea. He only knew that God required death for sin, and that a sacrifice was acceptable. Moses really and truly offered to go to hell for those people in earnest. How heavy his heart must have been as he went to be with God, to offer his own life!

Moses spent a lot of time with God. In fact, so much so that he got to speak to Him face to face, like a friend. He didn't get to see His face, but He did get to have intimate conversation with Him! God even allowed Moses to see all of His goodness, and He proclaimed His name. The Lord! The Lord! The compassionate God! What must it have been like to hear His voice?

Later, the people stood at their tents to watch Moses go and speak to God. Moses, who radiated the glory of God, was going to speak to God for the people. It occurs to me that I am not content to watch someone else display the glory of God and to speak to Him for me. I want to be with God. I want to radiate His glory, and to stand as a witness of Him!